The full package

” I don’t think  you know what your asking. When you love someone you dont just accept who they are right now.
You accept who they were back then. The people they used to love and care and then lose.

All these things were part for who they are.

You don’t just accept the now. You are asking for their past. And as much as you might not like some of it.

Every bit of those ” unlikeable ” things had to happen to make them who they are right now. Everyone has a past they rather not know. No one would want to taint the perfect image of the person they love.
That’s why it’s so important for you to accept it. If anyone but you could do it, then it wouldn’t be called love, would it? You gotta have the full package.”
Z

The Sketchbook Regeneration

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Hey

Its been awhile, I do apologize for the lack of writing. Honestly been a little caught up with some stuff. Had an off day today so decided to pack my room. Threw away a lot of  stuff, A LOT.

Also found other things that I forgot I had

Like sketch books. Lots of it.

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This one was from my Sec 3 year if I’m not wrong, I used to doodle in class quite a bit. Got me into a bit of trouble.

 

Not great, I know.

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This was done probably a year back? Exploring some concepts of gluttony.

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This guy… the most recent one.

(Still in progress, got a long feedback from this dude on FB, really detailed analysis on how I can improve. Very thankful for all the guidance.)

Its been a couple of years apart, about 5 years from the first one to the last one.

Honestly I can’t say that I am at where I want to be yet. There’s so much that I have yet to learn and so little that I know.

The works that I take hours to do can hardly even hold a candle what some artists can do in a matter of minutes. The things that I have yet understood makes me seem like a mere child as compared to someone who might be more talented, more experienced  or simply someone who worked harder.

That’s life, a 8 year old kind can make you look like a totally noob.

” What you gonna do about it? ”

Be better.

I’m not saying that you should strive to be better than the 8 year old kid. I mean come on, no one brags about winning an 8 year old.

Tsk, jerk.

Rather, strive to be better than who you are.

There are so many things that we can be better at, so many things that we can learn to improve.

Think about it, when was the last time you did something stupid?

Wish you hadn’t done that?

Yeah me too.

Some days we look back in to our lives and we cringe at the older version of us. The ones that are not as complete or not as developed.  The versions of   us that have yet to understand how life works, or just  how the world works.

The versions of  us that seem so much more immature . Even to the point when even thinking about the things we did makes us go

” Damn it, what was I thinking?”

And you know what?

That’s okay.

No one starts out really knowing everything. We keep learning at different points of our lives. Like different versions of ourselves, each time we ‘die’ a little and we ‘regenerate’ into someone else.

I guess what I wanted to write about isn’t really so much on how much I’ve improved  in my drawing over the past couple of years.

Rather, the point I want to drive across is this.

1.Believe in yourself. Believe that you can be better than who you are right now. Confidence can start from as little as just simply taking out the first step. You WILL Fail , i promise, but don’t let it stop you from trying. Nothing good is ever achieved without risking failure.

2.Be deaf to those who bring you down.  Ignore the people who tell you how difficult it is or how ‘most people’ can’t do it. Be different, dare to stand out of what’s comfortable and just do it. Ignore the people who tell you that you will never be good enough. Most importantly, ignore the people who tell you that you can’t do it just because they don’t think they can.

3. Be open minded, accept that you have flaws and that you need to improve.  Everyone does.  Sometimes it’s hard to tell a constructive criticism from a destructive one. Many times both would leave your ego bruised. That’s life. Examine the validity of the comment to understand how relevant it is to your work and then see if working towards it will help you improve. If not, just forget it and move on.

4. Keep a ‘sketch book’ of yourself, a piece of you that you want to see change, something that you wish to see improve.

It can be a drawing, or a writing, or even just something you want to be better at like singing.

Record them, and then work on it.
And work hard, work hard as hell.

NEVER skip the fundamentals no matter how boring or uninterested it might seem. Make the effect to learn it. No one builds houses on sand. Make yours out of stone.

6. Don’t be afraid to do what you love. There is rarely anything more satisfying than doing what you love . In fact, if you’re not doing what you like or love, what are you doing?

7. Lastly, appreciate what you have. Every moment of our lives shapes and forms who we are and what we do. Think about this for a moment about what you have, the people who you have right here, right now. It  you right now had to go through those exact things , do those exact mistakes and to learn those exact lessons to be this version of you in this reality to be with these people you care about in this exact manner.

Would you really want to do it any differently?

Me neither

Cheers.

Z